So it is no secret that I am dating someone who I truly am in high likes with from the bottom of my heart. Now this guy I have known for a while and we have dated on and off. We both realized what we was doing to hurt each other and have also grown up in many ways. I have been spending some time with him. I must say that every time I do see him it is like a breath of fresh air. Now a few of my friends know the history behind us and wants me to take things extra slow and not expect anything to become of this. But you know when you get the feeling somewhere in your body that everything is going to work for the better? Well that is the feeling I have been having.
Now anyone that knows me, knows that yes I am a bitch most of the time but deep down inside that I am a sucker for love. When I love I love big and hard. I'm not trying to put a date on a wedding or anything for that matter. But I do believe that he is and always has been the perfect one for me. The question that lies unanswered for me is am I the perfect person for him? I may never know the answer to that question. And I'm ok with that for now. I do know one things is for sure I don't mind taken this ride with him. I figure that it is best to open your heart and true love will eventually find it's way in right? I'm big on taken chances but not normally when it comes to my feelings. I have been hurt one too many times and not with just guys even with my family. So I had to learn to close my feeling off to people and shut down. I built this wall that is so high it is hard even for me to brake it down. However little by little some of the bricks are falling down due extreme weather changes within my self.
I had to learn to love my self before anyone else could love me. And I can't say I'm 100% in love with my self yet but I am enjoying the time spent getting to love me. I would like to say I was lost and needed direction. But that will be a lie. I was never lost I was just taken off of God's path for a little minute but I'm finding my way back to him, and I think in the mist of it all God is allowing me to see things more clearly when it comes to love and relationships. After all it did take him 6 days to create earth right? So how can I expect to be 100% in love with my self if I'm still a work in progress?
I say run with it, if ti doesn't work out you will have something most people cant say they do, EXPERIENCE! Many times we follow our hearts without using our heads and that is why things may not work well. If you do combine both you should be fine or if not at least not leave the same person you entered.
ReplyDeleteGood luck and great read!