I NEED YOUR SUPPORT

So this may be my deepest blog to date. (I was even thinking about doing a video blog but I'm not ready to let y'all see me cry) So here it goes...

It is no big surprise anymore that yes I am overweight. And for the longest while I have been saying that I am comfortable with my size. Well I have been lying to y'all. I am comfortable with who I have had to become while being this size. Looking in the mirror use to be fun for me at one point in time. But since I was laid off from my job and gained more weight I have not been content with the person that is looking back at me when I get dressed and look in the mirror. Do I think I am beautiful person inside and out? YES! But sometimes I'm just not seeing it look back at me in the mirror. I have STRUGGLED with my weight for years. And I have no one to blame but myself for allowing myself to get this way. I have been on diets after diets and they have work but I will always find myself beginning to slip back into eating those comfort foods and fast foods. WELL NO MORE WILL I ALLOW THIS! I'm ready to take back my health!

So as of November 1, 2010 I will be on a journey to a Better me. But I know I can't do this alone. I need the support of my friends and family. Challenge me to go for a walk or jog in the park. Or ask me what I ate today teach me ways that I can eat healthy with you. Cook for me. Drag me to the gym with you show me your workout routine. I've come to realized the only way I am going to get over this bump in my life is with the help, support and love from friends and family. So don't be afraid to call me out either. If you see me even trying to eat something I'm not supposed to don't be afraid to take it away from me. And don't temp me with food either. I'm a strong person but I'm not that strong yet. I figured together you can help me get to my goal weight. I bet you wanna know what that is right? Well my goal weight is to be healthy lol(I'm not telling how much I weigh or how much I wanna weigh)!

Some people will ask how is that I let myself get this far in my weight. It is very simple it is called going to collage and being home sick, and becoming depressed about things that was and still are going on in my life. So I ask you my friends and family take this journey with me and help me challenge myself to become a healthier DIVA because I'm ready to lose this weight for REAL NOW. I can no longer let it hold me back in what I want to do in life.