My Daddy Dont Play!

The other day I was on my way out the door to go shopping of course, when this greasy head man came up to me with an attitude and ask if Mr. Harley was home (my father). I told the man let me check to see if he was home, however before I can get the rest of sentence out one of my nosey neighbors said he just went inside. So I went to go get my father and when my daddy came outside the man started yelling at my father. Now I know normally it is not my place for me to be in my father's business but I feel it is my duty to protect my father. As I stood at the top of the steps the man is calling my father all types of names(It took alot out of me not to say anyting to that man). My father told the man if it was not against the law to knock the sit out of you I would. As the men go on "talking" the guy had a cane in his hand and was holding it like he was about to hit my daddy! NOW HOLD UP JUST A MINUTE MR. GREASE HEAD MAN! I then put my bag on the floor and was heading down stairs to protect my daddy! No one hits my daddy! I guess the guy seen that I got on my phone and made one phone call and that cane went right back into place! Now that the guy sees that not only is my daddy gangsta but his youngest daughter does not play when it comes to her daddy! Mr. Grease man started to walk back to his car and called my daddy a faggot! WRONG MOVE MR. GREASE HEAD MAN! That's when all gangsta came out of my daddy! I am not gonna even say what he did next. That day I realized that my daddy is real gangsta not only will he whip his kids ass even if we are all grown but he would whip someone Else's ass too! With that being said I LOVE MY GANGSTA DADDY!!!

The Leading Man Inn My Life!

So around mother's day weekend my nephew Nicholas was in NYC for the first time. Now if you know me you know that this little boy is my world. Well now that he is back in ATL with his parents I miss him even more now. I remember the first day I held him. I knew we would share a bond like no other. Now even though he gave me the evil eye the first time I seen him I wanted to cry (but we all know Clejoi does not shed tears in front of other people). From then I knew this little boy would melt my heart away. He makes me want to have a baby just for the simple fact that he is always happy (just don't mess with his food and sleep) no matter what. When he came to NYC he even stole my best friend's Venetta heart! I guess all in all I really do miss him and can't wait to see him again. I think I am going to send him a pictures of him and I so that he can see his auntie diva anytime he wants to (yeah I know that is kinda vain). I love you Nicholas just know that I am always and forever there for you.

Im Da Pappy, Da God Mommy, And the Auntie Kleeyshay!

So these past few weeks has been so crazy for me. My really good friends are all PREGNANT! There is Tierra who is having a girl (oh what joy that is going to be) and I am the baby father of Taylorlynn. Then there is Melissa who you may as well just say she is my sister from the same mother (we just don't look alike) and she is having a boy named Christian Makai Lyght I cant wait to meet my god child and spoil him. And last is Tanya I may have not known her for that long but I feel a though I am still close to her and i can't wait to meet Adain because if he is anything like his mother then this world is in for great laughs. I think having a baby is God's gift to this earth. And I can't wait to meet all of these new little editions that will be here in a few short months. So hold on ladies the babies are almost done baking! I know each and everyone of you will do just fine. You have a GREAT support team behind you!

Not Easily Broken!

I woke up this morning and did my normal routine go one facebook and media take out. As I was on facebook I started to read some status updates that was posted and as I was reading I just had an EPIPHANY. I AM TRULY BLESSED! I AM A WALKING AND LIVING TESTIMONY THAT THERE IS A GOD he is not done with me yet. I AM NOT THAT EASILY BROKEN! This past year I know for a fact that is was a test to see if I can stand the heat! I may have needed to cool off a few times but I can stand it now! I have been through a lot. From not knowing who I really am as a person to having to let some friends go in my life. I finally feel like I am coming into MY OWN finding who out just who CLEJOI VIVIAN HARLEY is and where she belongs in life. I now know that God is placing the right people in my life and taking the bad ones out. I use to say I was living for my niece's and nephews, well now I can say I am living for ME! I can now hold my head up high and say I have a reason and a purpose of being here!

Unanswered Questions

So for the past couple of weeks my heart has been weighing heavy upon my grandmother Vivian also known as Nani. Even though she is no longer with me here on earth she is forever in my heart and on my mind. I always think if I had one more shot or even one more day with her WHAT will I say? WHAT will we do? WHERE would we go? WILL it just be us? and Most important of them all WHAT WILL I WEAR? I think of all these questions but yet I am still with no answers. I know that one day we will meet again but until that day all I can do is DREAM OF HER! One poem that I think of when it comes to my grandmother is:

Dream

Last night I dreamt

This most strange dream,

And everywhere I saw

What did not seem could ever be:

You were not there with me!

Awake,

I turned

And touched you

Asleep

Face to the wall.

I said,

How dreams

Can lie!

But you were not there at all!

By: Langston Hughes

The Scale Does Not Lie!!!!

It is So TRUE!!

The Scale Does Not Lie! Ever since I have been on Weight Watchers I have been losing weight!!( yup i'm getting my sexy back don't hate)! I believe that joining weight watchers was the best thing for me. I get to still eat what I want... I can hear my leader Patricia in my head "Portion control ladies" Even though going to the meeting sometimes can be a little bit of a bore to me, because the ladies that attend there are a little older than me... Yet they still look Fab! It's kinda hard for me to relate to them sometimes because I am a girl that goes out and drinks and party, so I feel a little bit awarked because I dont want these ladies to think I am a big time party girl and all I do is drink!

I can now say I have two very important people that I go to the gym with most of the time Venetta and her sister Dee. Between the three of us you can see that we are all dropping weight! And I love it! This battle is not over for me. I am doing this with God as my coach! I know that with him I can get through this.

I'm starting to learn more and more everyday to balance my walk with Christ so that when I reach my goals I wont feel so empty inside.

Little Things Matter!!!

Well I must say I am HAPPY...

I went to my weight watcher meeting today and they told me I lost 1.4 lbs!!!

While most people will look at this as "it's only a pound"

While I look at it as a big step for me.

I did not even work that hard to lose that 1.4 lbs!

So just wait till I get back in the gym!(Beyonce watch out because i'm coming for you)

I often feel as though I am in this race ALONE

I have very few friends and family that support me.

GOD is my coach and I know that through him I will reach my goal weight.

So while I only may have lost that little 1.4 lbs it means the world to me

Sasha Watch Out This Diva is coming for you!!!